The Weekend that Was

This weekend was pretty fun, but it reminded me what I'll be missing this summer when I leave. It's funny how a single week can change your entire year. I guess its true when they say that you never know where life will take you, though you find out why it takes you there along the way.

Friday: My friend and I made plans to go to a party. When I got to his place, neither of us were dressed. We decided instead to just hang out, crack open a bottle of wine and play video games. There was an enjoyable throwback moment where I sat back and watched him as he struggled with tech support for an MMO. It felt like we really had gone nowhere since High School.

Saturday: Went to Magic Prerelease. Even though I went 1-3, I had a lot of fun and felt better that the ones where I do well, but I am stressed out by the games. Hung out with another friend afterwards and played for a bit. He and his wife (it feels so fucking weird writing that) opened their wedding presents. Over Skype. Welcome to 2013. We also got dinner off of Potbelly's 'Secret' Menu. After, went to my grandparents and helped them avoid having to repaint an entire room.

Sunday: Went to Prerelease for redemption..Got some cards for my EDH deck. Saw my friend go 4-0 and take first, while his brother and I went 1-3. Accused of cheating in our after-prerelease guild off. Kids were just jealous I won. Went to White Marsh to pick up a friend, and passed by the Starbucks that makes me embarassed of the things high school me did. Hung out for a while and talked about a wide variety of topics, including life, work, movies, television, and music (Reminder: I need to check out The Voice). Got two books that are quite related to my interests as gifts.

Three weeks remain before I leave the state.

Funny Story of the Day:
This is a bit of an old story, but I'll record it because in hindsight it was pretty funny.
Two guys are sitting in a group that is mostly female.
Guy 1: It is rough being a single guy in this crowd. Not many lookers.
Guy 2: To be honest, I don't know many of the people here.
Guy 1: Well, you know her. *motions* She cleans up pretty well at least.
Guy 2: Huh. I thought she always looks good.
Guy 1: That is an interesting perspective.

Lyric of the Day: The XX: Fiction

Fiction, when we're not together
Mistaken for a vision, something of my own creation
Come real love, why do I refuse you?
Cause if my fear's right, I risk to lose you
And if I just might wake up alone
Bring on the night

This reminds me of a quote from 500 days of Summer that I keep on my Facebook wall.

We are the things we hold on to

I've been packing for the past couple of weeks. And by packing I mean going through my things and remembering the past. I am a sucker for nostalgia. Things I found:

- My sixth grade journal (where I reveal my desire for a stable job and a Gameboy)
- My middle school yearbook (with a thank you note from a best friend who is barely an acquaintance now)
- A reminder that my rival was still smarter than me in that yearbook
- YMA Mix CD one !!!
- My nunchucks from demo team
- A game I made for learning about vitamins
- Binders full of Pokemon
- A friend from HS's award that was left in my car on graduation day
- A syllabus from a class I never took, but attended anyway
- A report titled 'LAID'
- A purchase request (and a pledge of assistance in fowl interruption)
- A poem I started on a scrap of paper while waiting in a car on my friend's campus

Here is the last one. It was an interesting start, but i kind of want to leave it unfinished.

Identity

Man is not what he is.
He is not this collection of emotions.
He is what others see.
A reflection in the mind's eye.

I am not the thoughts in my brain,
these feelings in my heart,
or this blood in my veins.

I am a memory in the collective conscious.

I enjoy being an emo kid. And its not just for the bangs, though I do love them.

Lyric of the Day: Dev - Take Her From You

You say you know her
Well I know her too
You say you kno-ow-ow-ow-ow her
But you don’t know her like I do

You say you love her
Once upon a time I loved her too
You say you lo-o-o-o-ove her
But you don’t love her like I do

You’ve got to give me that girl
Or I, will take her from you

Where the main character ignores everything he has learned so far

I realized a little bit ago that I should probably stop planning out my life so far in advance. Who knows what city I will end up in, what job I'll have, or when I'll find Ms. Right? My love for structure and control have tended to leave me at the corner of confused and apathetic.

With that in mind, I'm going to make a decision that I think I will have control over. I want to have a pet. I don't know what type of pet. While I would like to have a baby panda that I grow into an adult and make into my personal bodyguard, I do realize the impracticality of that idea. I'll probably end up with a small, manageable dog.

I can dream, right? The important part of being a dreamer is admitting that you have a problem. I'll update you if I ever figure out how to fix that. For right now, all I've got is that you have to acknowledge the infeasibility of your more ideal ideas. That was actually unintentional alliteration.

Weekend Recap: Lab work on 2 hrs of sleep. Playing BSG with noobs. Dinner where I actually had to answer the "what do you do?" question. Drinking games to a great movie (Easy A) for a friend's bday. Starting a bachelor party at 2 am. Endless Mimosas. Saw a ball game. The earliest, messiest end to a night that I've ever had. Overanalyzed the pacing of the Hunger Games movie.

Lana Del Ray: Summertime Sadness
"Kiss me hard before you go
Summertime sadness
I just wanted you to know
That, baby, you're the best

I got my red dress on tonight
Dancing in the dark in the pale moonlight
Done my hair up real big beauty queen style
High heels off, I'm feeling alive

Oh, my God, I feel it in the air
Telephone wires above are sizzling like a snare
Honey, I'm on fire, I feel it everywhere
Nothing scares me anymore"