This year has been fucking insane. It started with the Ravens championship being a comfort while I dealt with some harsh truth. I drove through Indy listening to A$AP, Kansas listening to MaRo, and OK listening to Lana. I had my first international trip that was not for family or school. It involved me coming to grips with the fact that it is not giving up, when you need to move on. Trying to figure out what I want out of my career.
This year had ups as high as crying at a best friend's wedding to lows as hard as getting a phone call that another of my best friend's was in critical condition at a hospital.
The result is that I have found myself in a weird uncertain place, trying to figure things out.
It reminds me of when I was in college and realized that moral absolutism made no sense as our individual needs makes morality relative. Except now I'm searching for purpose instead of understanding the world.
Maybe I'm stuck in a rut of being a cynical asshole. Maybe I'll have a cathartic moment where everything becomes clear.
Lyric of the Day: 50 Cent & The Game - Love it or Hate it
"Hate it or love it, the underdog's on top
And I'm gon' shine homey until my heart stop"
This year had ups as high as crying at a best friend's wedding to lows as hard as getting a phone call that another of my best friend's was in critical condition at a hospital.
The result is that I have found myself in a weird uncertain place, trying to figure things out.
It reminds me of when I was in college and realized that moral absolutism made no sense as our individual needs makes morality relative. Except now I'm searching for purpose instead of understanding the world.
Maybe I'm stuck in a rut of being a cynical asshole. Maybe I'll have a cathartic moment where everything becomes clear.
Lyric of the Day: 50 Cent & The Game - Love it or Hate it
"Hate it or love it, the underdog's on top
And I'm gon' shine homey until my heart stop"
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